So, yesterday I hit the 20 week mark in this new pregnancy. It is amazing how quickly the time is going. Half way there, wow! I am beginning to feel the baby move more and more. Today while I was driving, I felt a little nudge. This nudge took me back to when I was pregnant with Charlotte. From the first time I felt Charlotte move inside me, I was amazed. Having so many children has taught me to not take the little things for granted. I've seen many seasons of pregnancy, babyhood and childhood come and go so very quickly; some quite challenging and some simply delightful. I've tried to embrace each season with comfort in the knowledge that it will soon pass and not wanting to miss anything in the moment. I know that many of those moments, as rough as they were, I would never get back again.
I never grew tired of feeling Charlotte move inside of me. Feeling her stretch, poke and move always brought me amazement. Even though I have had many pregnancies, I was in awe each and every time I felt my daughter. I always felt humbled and honored that God would chose to bless us with another life.
Feeling this new baby's life also reminds me of the day I no longer felt Charlotte's life in me. This brings fear and a whole load of other emotions. Even though my heart still aches with missing Charlotte, I am so grateful for the nine months I had with her. I am thankful for the bond we created each and every time I felt her move. That is how I knew her.
This new pregnancy reminds me to not take any of this pregnancy stuff, no matter how challenging or uncomfortable, for granted. I know well that it may last all too short. Once again I am humbled and amazed that my God would love me enough to bless me with another life. I look forward to knowing this little one through his/her kicks and movements just as I knew his/her sister. Even though this pregnancy requires more faith than any of my other pregnancies, I know God is good and He has a plan for this little one's life, the same way He has a plan for Charlotte's life. I can trust Him!